The Preparation

My BF called me the day before yesterday while I was having an intense meeting in my company. Taking a short breather, I went to talk to him.

He asked if I can consider going to stay with him after he comes back to attend my brother's wedding in the coming January. He hopes that I can stay there a while since the visa will allow a 3 month stay, taking a look at the country and see whether I will like the place.

I think that it wouldn't be a bad idea to do so. While I'm there, I can check out the entertainment and the e-commerce industry. I can also take this time to see how I can learn to lead a life with the one I love. I sounded to him that I will need to talk to my parents as 3 months is not a short period of time. I will also need to make arrangements for my bills in Singapore.

It was then he corrected my thoughts. His intention was hopping that I will stay in Australia and continue my life with him from there. Once I'm settled in, he will buy a house, and we will get ready for our wedding. I went quiet. I was shocked. This was really too sudden for me. I felt excited, stunned, bewildered, and all sorts of other feelings.

He mistook it that I was unhappy about it. I wasn't. But I was unprepared for it to be so fast. I told him that I WILL HAVE to discuss with my parents about this. I will also have to discuss with my business partners about what role I can play when I leave Singapore.

After convincing that I really wasn't upset about this question, I went back for my meeting. Not long later, my BF texted me, asking me to forget about the what he had just told me. He mentioned that he does not want me to talk to my parents about it when I am not ready.

I gathered my thoughts and I told him that even though I am not ready, but I will need to start getting myself prepared. I know myself too well. Given my characteristics, I will always love to be able to roam around. Just like a happy monkey, jumping from one tree to the next.

My priority is to make sure that my company will become more stable before I can leave it to my partners to run it. I have to make it happen fast so that I can continue with other things. Then i can concentrate on bringing the other department of the company and work it in Australia. This will ensure that I will still be part of the company.

I am too ambitious. I did not start my own company for fun. If I had wanted to work for other people in the 1st place, I wouldn't even think of being my own boss. This goes the same whether I am leaving in Singagore or Australia. If I have to stay in Australia, I will work for a couple of years, but at the same time, establish my company and make it into an international company instead. Yes, I absolutely do not want a simple life style. And yes, this will make my life a little more difficult.

So in the mist of everything, I need him to know that me going to Australia is not just dropping every single thing in Singapore, take a small lugguage and start afresh in Australia, as if I have never have anything to do in Singapore before that. Getting me to go Australia will means that I will carry most of the baggages that I have and want to have into the future that I want.

I will have to make sure that I study the Australia market, getting myself prepared to a different life, different role, with different culture, different people, and every other things that I know. Learning to ACCEPT that fact that I will have someone at my side, unlike before, that I will have more responsiblity, and the comfort I am familiar with in the past is not just a walk or a bus ride away anymore.

Yes, and I will have to make sure that I get my driving license before that.