Notes to Ponder

Nobody is perfect in this world. At least I know that I am not.

I received comments that I was too aggressive for my company.

There were many times when I get serious at work, people working with me will feel that I was too harsh in my choice of words. That is perhaps my fault. But to me, everything is very clear cut. Most things are in white and black. Little are in grey.

Sometimes, I tend to tell people off. To me, it is work. To them, they took it personally.

There were times when we were in some situations, I felt that they could have been more proactive. Yet, because I was always the 1st one noticing things that had gone wrong, I rectify it immediately. What I do not understand is why they could stand there and look at the situation, and not know what to do about it. I got tired of telling them what to do, that nowadays, I just do it myself, i.e, climbing the ladder, hanging some stuff on high ceiling when we were running short of time. And by the way, I'm the only female staff in the whole company.

Talking about being the only female staff, I really wonder how come I'm the most aggressive one anyway...

I have some people who are in the same trait as me told me that I'm wasted in this company. That they were too weak for me. They told me that they wish that one day I will be able to join them, and make up a more powerful team.

Were they telling me the truth or simply just trying to make me doubt about my team?

Now I keep thinking:

1. Should I be less aggressive, to meet the level of the rest of my company, which to me, it means to be less bothered about things happening, or
2. Should I try to train them in my area, to feel what I feel, see what I see, yet may end up giving them more stress then ever?